So....Sooo....SOOO

Whats up with me well i went to goldston woth Ell and her Mom and it was awesome , i Mean amanda was acting weird but...hey...that is Amanda.......when we were their we made like 16.4 cds...a little crazy huh.... i am in a stevie Nicks mood right now.....i dont exactly know why either ...i just am ...so when we went to goldston everything slowed down..but now that i am back life is going to fast i mean..today is already Wednesday....

So yesterday Ell and i played catch and that was fun i mean i forgot how invigorating it is to get swetty sometimes...

Well we also recorded today i mean nothing great just the melody for a song were working on..but hey its something.......

Times have changed for the better.....I mean a year ago it wouldnt even bee concevable that I....Andrew Dibble would ever be in love again...

.its a wonderful feeling......i dont remember the last time i was this happy.....every time im with ellen i feel a deep spiritual connection

The Promise rings......something that makes this relationship whole......everytime our rings touch its.....like magic..... I can't wait untill 50 years from now when they are weathered and old...when we look down at our wrinkly old hands and remember the day when our love was carved into the rock that adorns our fingers and i know that in 50 years....i will still love her...

                                                                                        "I LOVE YOU"

Three words that reverbarate in my ears

Three words that should be used sparingly,

I am in love.....and my love is so strong that some times i want to scream it

I L O V E  Y O U  E L L E N  N E W E L L ! ! ! !

Some times i sit and reflect on our love and i relize how perfect and how intense our relationship actually is...

I am one step away from graduating....Ive typed,edited and printed now my english essay is done and over with.

This essay was a pain in the arse,but i am greatful that i did it and i am greatful that it is over with.

Now all i have to do is the english Project.....another pain in my arse but ill feel the same way about it.

Share My Tears

Please i beg you,

to sleep with me one last night,

The struggle ive felt,

is full of strife,

Please give me a chance to undo what ive done,

Please let me be the one,

to love you,

because i feel like i do,

Please dont say the words "were through"

because you are me and i am you,

Please relize that you cant leave,

because the tears that i'll cry,

will be the tears that i bleed,

Yell,

Scream,

Cuss,

Fight,

but please,

just dont

L E A V E 

Ellen; my spirit

I sing of a spirit that guides my soul,

the one true fairy that makes life,

love,

i saw her eyes in a dream of gold,

i saw her soul in her smile,

to live a life with out her love,

would be a painful,selfish, suicide in my heart,

she gave me a chance to love her,

when love didnt exsist in my heart,

she gave me a chance to breath in her spirit,

when my spirit was lifeless,

and,

i love her......

(*) I love you sweet heart(*)

"*"Pink Triangle""

by:Weezer

When I’m stable long enough
I start to look around for love
See a sweet and floral print
My mind begins the arrangements
But when I start to feel that pull
Turns out I just pulled myself
She would never go with me
Were I the last girl on earth
I’m dumb she’s a lesbian
I thought I had found the one
We were good as married in my mind
But married in my mind’s no good
A pink triangle on her sleeve
Let me know the truth
Let me know the truth
Might have smoked a few in my time
But never thought it was a crime
Knew the day would surely come
When I’d chill and settle down
When I think I’ve found a good old fashioned girl
Then she put me in my place
If everyone’s a little queer
Can’t she be a little straight
Chorus, chorus, chorus
Let me know the truth

How can i pretend to be the boy i once was,

How will i show you, with an ounce of trust,

this is the topic that i shall discuss,

Do you really know any of us,

wonderment and innocence,

something i wonce had,

wounds and scars,

replace my great love,

the blood of a virtue,

is a tear most cried,

but was i really present,

when my happy soul died,

I remember that night sometimes in dreams,

only to wake up to the sound of my screams,

the tears i adorn arnt thoughs of the sad,

the tears that i show just show that im glad,

happy to be released from the torture i once felt,

happy , to hear my heart melt again once more,

By Candlelight

By:Sylvia Plath

This is winter, this is night, small love ---
A sort of black horsehair,
A rough, dumb country stuff
Steeled with the sheen
Of what green stars can make it to our gate.
I hold you in my arm.
It is very late.
The dull bells tongue the hour.
The mirror floats us at one candle power.

This is the fluid in which we meet each other,
This haloey radiance that seems to breathe
And lets our shadows wither
Only to blow
Them huge again, violent giants on the wall.
One match scratch makes you real.
At first the candle will not bloom at all ---
It snuffs its bud to almost nothing, to a dull blue dud.

I hold my breath until you creak to life,
Balled hedgehog,
Small and cross. The yellow knife
Grows tall. You clutch your bars.
My singing makes you roar.
I rock you like a boat
Across the Indian carpet, the cold floor,
While the brass man
Kneels, back bent as best he can

Hefting his white pillar with the light
That keeps the sky at bay,
The sack of black! It is everywhere, tight, tight!
He is all yours, the little brassy Atlas ---
Poor heirloom, all you have
At his heels a pile of five brass cannonballs,
No child, no wife.
Five balls! Five bright brass balls!
To juggle with, my love when the sky falls.

                    If i were *A*.......

If I were a month, I'd be: November
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Sunday

If I were a time of day, I'd be: Before Its Dark

If I were a planet, I'd be: Neptune

If I were a sea animal, I'd be: Dolphin
If I were a direction, I'd be: West

If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: Futon
If I were a sin, I'd be: Lust

If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Abby Hoffman

If I were a flower, I'd be: Sun Flower

If I were a kind of weather, I'd be:Breezy and cold

If I were a musical instrument, I'd be a: Mandolin

If I were an animal, I'd be: A cat

If I were a color, I'd be: Grey
If I were a sound, I'd be: Rain

If I were a car, I'd be: A truck 
If I were a movie, I'd be: Almost Famous
If I were a food, I'd be: French Fries
If I were a material, I'd be: Cotton
If I were a taste, Hearty
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: In wonderment
If I were a part of a house, I'd be: The Master bedroom

If I were a cartoon character, I'd be: stewie from" Family guy"
If I were a shape, I'd be a: Circle
If I were a number, I'd be: 25

   So life has been interesting as of lately, i am dating the sweetest girl in the history of the world she is intellegent,alluring and responsible.....Her name is ELLEN!!!!

Also, in about Three weeks my highschool carrer will be over,and after that i am starting Cpcc in January as a Transfer student.

This journal will take me into my new life.Probobly much more exciting then my old.....

..So hold on boys and girls....your in for a ride..

"Lonely Day"

I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can't
go back to bed
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day

Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day

I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.

Wow what a great night for a great concert.Phantom planet was so amazing they played my song ..."lonely day"..... Which..was...incredible. The atmosphere at Tremont was insane it was also one big fashion show....which kind of got on my nerves......but i mean what are you going to do....The Lead Guitar Player is awesome i want to be him one day....

To make this concert even better...... i was with my Ellen and if people dont think going to a concert can make a relationship stronger...Well your stupid....but all in all thats my Tuesday.

A love song is more than just a song that reminds you of a passed lover or a dream of having one. A loves song is a snapshot of a dream or a memory that you cherish forever.

It can be any song even if its not talking about love, because it could be talking about love to you

My love song is "cowboy take me away" by the dixie chicks
i mean even if it is a girl song it is a summery of my love for all females i have ever loved and ever will


....What is your love song?....

"Pass Me By"

The words you never cared to say
I want to find a better place
When we rely on something more than this
And even as I try to sleep
I'm looking for my best friends
I'm tired of all the people I'm seeing through
(The) Same idea:
It makes me wonder why I'm here
And even when I try to sleep
Still looking for my best friend
When we rely on something more than this
The words you never cared to say,
"I want to start a family"
I'm tired of all the people I'm seeing through
(The) Same idea
It makes me wonder why I'm here
Watch me now
Try
Couldn't walk down that line
Just pass me by
Just passing by.

"Seize the day"

So i am the happiest man alive right now.....I made The southbrook Church Praise Team....omg when Brad gave me the forms and the days i have to miss sheet i could of died... He told me that my voice was awesome and that if more guys tried out we might be able to start an accapella group.....yay!!!!
I cant play with the team at services for a month because i have to learn all the songs but after that their going to put me in rotation........I love the world right now

So this summer has been Uber~interesting
It has been the longest summer break of my life.
From May 7th to August 11th.....Wow.....
I learned a lot this summer including not to trust guys as friends at all, That Meredith is my future wife in law, and that jessica is a diamond in the ruff..... Also i learned that Kevin is the only guy friend i can ever have.....i had a re visit from heather that was heated....N passsion....and then their is Amanda:(....the girlthat made my summer...and broke it but all in all i had the best summer ever.....well not ever but close to it....

May 7th ~ August 11th
Yeaaaayahh

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OK Guys i recently purchased a paid account....but i stilldont know what is good about it i mean im sure its so..so...much better but i havnt done much exploring yet.....

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